Feeling Lonely

We aren't alone. His Son's name is Emmanuel which means "God is with us". God is faithful. God never leaves. God is a good Father. We are His children. Yet with all this truth surrounding me I still feel alone. I still feel that there is no one there to truly count on. The lies of the enemy creep in as I sit in my room and look through old pictures, or think of what could have been or how it could of played out differently. I isolate myself further and further from the people but even worse I isolate myself from God. The problem is even when you try to isolate yourself from God He still finds us and seeks us out. I wonder how I could ever feel alone with a God who pursues me like my God does. The problem is not with God but with me. My heart is hurting and broken. Its like when a child gets injured and the only way for them to get better is to allow their parents to touch it and clean it but because its stings and it burns the child pulls away. The only way for us to get healed is to allow God to come in and clean up our wounds and maybe it burns and hurts but it will heal faster if we go to the source of our healing. So many times though I am like the child who pulls away and says let me deal with it myself and all it does is get infected and take longer to heal and it hurts more than it ever would have if I would have just let my Heavenly Father come in and heal me. I allow myself to feel lonely because I change my position with God. It is never God who changes His position or how he feels about us. If you feel distant from God you need to look at yourself and where you are. God is faithful to the end and as a father he will stay so close to you especially when you are hurting. I find in the "lonely" times are the times I hear most from God or when God moves most because there is nothing else to distract me. Maybe sometimes things get taken away because God just wants us to Himself for a little while. Maybe just maybe God misses us and wants more time with us because we are children. Life can become consuming if we allow it, I mean we have school, work, spouses, kids, friends, and the list could go on of things that take up our time. So many times we make other things priorities because its the logical thing to do since we can't just quit our jobs or ignore our kids. God is not asking that of us though, He is asking for us to come to Him and allow Him to be in the rightful place in our lives. Is God our number one? Do we thank Him when we wake up and speak to Him throughout day? Do we read His Word? Where does God fit into your life? Why are we trying to make Him fit anywhere? I have noticed when I make God my number one and allow Him to have all my heart things actually go better and we have more time because with God he works all things out for our good. Now I know this kind of took a different spin than you may have expected but remember that feeling lonely and being alone are two different things. Because if you follow God then you are never alone no matter where you go or how far you try to run because God our Father will chase you to the ends of the earth and the depths of the sea to let you know you are not alone.