Its worth it..even when it hurts

"Christianity is worth it", such a common phrase but rarely is it ever followed by "even when it hurts". What about the times when you cry yourself to sleep, when you feel alone, and when you feel hated by all? Is it still worth it then? I feel this way right now! To know that even when your heart is breaking God is still worth it no matter what.
The words of man pierce the flesh and if not treated by turning to God can turn into an infection which leads to death. Jesus told us we were "lambs among wolves" and at the moment I feel like the most fragile of the lambs out there always being the one to be attacked by the wolf. Feeling hurt and abandoned by not only people but I felt God had left me and I have become angry and not understanding why was chosen to experience this. For the past week I haven't been able to stand who I am, my life or hope I was supposed to have. My friend Steph told me to read Philippians chapter 4, two verses stuck out to me which were Philippians 4:6-7 "Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." it talks about being happy where you are, how no matter what whether my life sucks or not God has me in the exact spot I'm there for a reason. That verse really struck home with me!!
I know that Christianity is worth it when I'm happy...but its also worth it when I'm hurting and my heart has been ripped out of my chest by the hands of men. God is growing me through my struggles but not if I don't lean on Him during them. God isn't my friend who makes everything seem peachy to keep me happy and to keep me around! He's the friend that when trials come he doesn't try to sugar coat instead he grows me and he molds me and when it feels too much to bear he sits with me and comforts me.
The question still remains, "do you find it worth it in the darkness of your trials when your heart has been broken is it still worth it to you to follow God?" Cause I'm learning it is, Jesus took up his cross and its time to take up mine which will lead to eternal life of joy!